Want.Need.No.Never.

Want.Need.No.Never.

You say you didn't want it but you did anyway
You say that it's unfair but you took it the same
You took and took and took and you feel like it's all there
You take and talk and speak like you were not even there
Subjective
Misplaced
Not
in
any
place
Disjointed
and not in motion
You take and took and the walls you shook
You say your sorry
but what for
What is it you want
Nothing
is in your mind
You did it cause you wanted it
and you needed it
and why was it that you needed it
wanted it
Was it your life blood
your first born child
Your need
Your. Insessant. Need.
something you can
not
live without
Something that lives void of yourself
you leave it alone and with yourself You keep it to yourslf
But you didn't give it your all
You just gave it up
and that's fine
because it's what you wanted
what you needed
I believe that
truely
truely that you need
and want
and what of me
Don't I
want
need
No
never

-Matthew Koutzun

(There is actually a funny story behind this poem. I wrote it while drunk at a friends party about a few months ago- or it could be a year already. It's the only thing I've written while under the influence and I was pretty impressed about how it turned out. I'm poetic even while under the influence! But I'm too afraid to try it again, I don't need dependancy issues... and I can do it sober anyway!)